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[info]amyellen
so sad

helpless


so far away

so sad

tears

sniffles

so pointless to write, because it won't come out

the ball is just stuck in my chest and it hurts so bad

wish I could turn back time

it is not fair

not there

so far away

can't help

so sad
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Sensory ball
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[info]amyellen

As I sit here and breath during the state reading test and KELPA, I thought I would write down my thoughts about the therapeutic tool I have been using.

Despite the ball’s bumpy texture, it is not painful to the touch.
Maybe it was at one point.
I remember in the store that it felt more pokey than soothing.
Maybe I have rubbed the points down to bumps during the last two weeks of testing.
Just like the earth, it has a northern hemisphere and a southern hemisphere.
The northern hemisphere has a black hard piece of plastic to serve as the air’s entry point.
I wonder if the north pole has a similar place for God to carefully insert the right amount of pressure into the earth.
Too much pressure and BOOOM ….
The air hole does not bend, move, or leak.
It is the most solid air release/insert value I have ever seen on a ball.
Then again, I do not normally have time to examine many toys or tools in my everyday life.

My pink bumpy sphere does have more air than it’s brothers: Mr. Purple and Mr. Orange.
Then again, they rolled around the floorboard for a while during various climatic changes.
Maybe they are sad that they don’t get used like Ms. Pink does.
They sit at home anxiously awaiting the kids to come home from school with spelling words
So they can be used to practice different spelling patterns.
Maybe that is why they have released some of their air.
Releasing air in the anguish of not being used day in and day out.

My pink sphere has approximately 310 bumps on it.
There are more bumps in the northern hemisphere than there are in the south.
I wonder if that could be related to population.
Maybe it is just because the south pole consists of a UPC code
And some confusion of it’s nationality,
And a rubbed out ELL label.
It says it is from Mexico
Even gives the specific area and zip code
Guadalajara
44940
But
Then again
It does list something that ends in USA

So which is it?
Are you from Mexico or from here?

Maybe it is fitting that it ended up in my office.
A place full of people that are from here but at the same time here or there
Maybe it is my pink bumpy multicultural ball
How fitting!

I don’t think it is bilingual though
Despite my squeezing and pushing and pulling
It has not leaked any air
So I can’t tell if it leaks air in Spanish or in English

All I know is I love my
Pink bumpy sphere
With its equator
North and south poles
It’s slight lean to the right
Caused by my squeezing and pushing

Oh, I also learned
It does not work well to be
brushed through hair to massage my head
rolled down my calf over my pant leg
or stroked down a bare arm

But it does work well to be
Rolled on the side of the heel of my sandaled foot
Rolled between my hands after putting lotion on
And squeezed so hard that it almost pops
when the kids are answering their questions.

Who knew that a pink bumpy sphere
Could cause such relief to state testing
And have therapeutic benefits to my stressed
Body and mind.

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Testing
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[info]amyellen

I am testing this. ...,.

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Cam Jansen and the Mystery of the Babe Ruth Baseball
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[info]amyellen

silly end of year livejournal nonsense.
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[info]amyellen

You spin me right 'round, baby,
'right round like an amyellen, baby.

Which song was this lyric from?

Get your own lyrics:

ok. whatever. post.
Edna
[info]amyellen
In 2009, amyellen resolves to...
Learn to play the disney.
Connect with my inner knowledge.
Cut down on my reading.
Cut down to ten my kids a day.
Admit my true feelings to jaymzt.
Take evening classes in adhd.
Get your own New Year's Resolutions:

Life
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[info]amyellen

Life is annoyingly normal today.

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body image
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[info]amyellen
Dislike:
standing in front of a full length mirror,
trying on bra after bra,
having to explain that this one makes my sides bulge,
this one is gaping, this one is too tight, this one is too noisy,

I can fit my entire hand into the bra --- over the boob!

this one is too ... well... just plain weird,
this one is too thin,
this one is too big,
another gaping one,
and another....

So Dislike:
seeing myself,
my ill formed body,
that is not taken care of,
not exercised enough,
my jelly roll certainly does not look delicious,
it does not make my stomach rumble,
it makes my stomach turn upside down in sickness.

No bra fits,
the bra expert
-who has an ear piece to communicate with the other odd ones that work in that store
-really, do you really need that?
Do you whisper back and forth about how all us aging women with floppy sagging boobige look in the young hip bras?

No bra fits,
well, she suggests a full coverage bra.
not because of my busty bouncy chesty.
no, because my sagging boobies no longer require the sexy look provided by a push up bra.
Might I add, no longer fit in the sexy delicious push up bra.

I grab one that fits, covers the aging girls, rush to get my free panties, and zip to the register.
so ready to be done with this suppose-to-be-pleasing shopping experience.

Before the lady at the cash register looked up at me,
she started talking about the store credit card.

then she saw me.
maybe it was my hair.

or my grubby does-not-fit-with-the-store-image.

or my look of lack of money.

but she stopped talking about it.
did not hassle me about it.

who knows
maybe it was my sagging, bra-gaping boobies.

maybe that is what the little ear piece is for.
to say to each other...
oh here is the old saggies..
don't even offer her a store credit card.
she can only wear one bra in the store-the ugly one - hidden back on shelf m d. ( major droopiness.)

I am to the point of a cover-them-up, separate them so they sit evenly between my pits and my chest bone.
cant have those babies sitting next to each other.
just got to catch them from falling down into the armpits.

no sexiness
no lift
no push up and together
no longer a woman
at least not a booby flaunting woman


just a mom
a teacher
with a non-sexy but gets the job done bra.

and it still squeaks a little.

oh, how I dislike bra shopping.



>
>

as I left the store,
with money spent,
bra bought,
ego shot,
pride gone,
tears in my eyes,

I saw my wonderful kids playing the video game at the kiosk

and

my loving hubby

with a huge bag of assorted chocolates,

all kinds of yummy centers,
all shades of yumminess-from milk chocolate to dark chocolate.

and he really thought
he was going to be able to get
that bag of chocolate out of my hands
while we left the mall?

no way.

I just went bra shopping,

I need all the chocolate I can get.
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[info]amyellen
1. lost one aide at the end of last year
2. losing? another aide-as of today? - not sure if it is official yet
3. losing? my nice big office as of today? this week? - not sure when yet
4. did clean out a bunch of stuff yesterday-guess God was preparing me
5. interviewing 9 people tomorrow for the aide position-I guess I have two positions to fill now
6. aide (who is leaving today?) won't answer his phone-turned off/changed numbers my butt-James says he is scared of me and won't answer the phone. (I know it is not so-he is a great guy-but it is frustrating tonight!!!!)

7. no articles completed

accomplished
ElastiGirl
[info]amyellen
Went through some office/desk supplies and THREW away the pens I knew did not work-did not save them in some feeble attempt to resurrect them in the future.

Went through some filing cabinet drawers and made a file later pile, a trash pile, and a shred pile. Filled two trash cans with trash and two cans with shred items.

Hung up some items on walls and back up on cabinets-decorations from last year.

Listened to music and jammed while I cleaned.

Put books on shelves and even sorted them and got rid of some of them.

Created a HUGE pile of give away stuff for other teachers.

Pulled out a TON of ELL stuff to give back to my boss and other teachers.

Even drove over and dropped some stuff off with my boss.

AND EVEN drove over to friends/other ELL teacher tonight and dropped off the REST Of the stuff!!

So, it is all out of the car and my office.

My office is not perfect-but it is better.

I am stoked.

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